Just do it…
Sometimes you just have to get up and do it…
Take today for instance. My therapist tells me that exercising for 30-40 minutes at least 3 times a week has the same affect as taking a mild anti-depressant. So I took up the challenge to do at least 10 000 steps a day for the whole of March and so far I am on track.
Until today. Yesterday my doctor prescribed a new medication for me that was supposed to calm me, elevate my mood and help me to sleep. Sleep has been a major issue for weeks and everything I’ve tried to date has failed. The lack of sleep was probably the main contributing factor in the melt down I experienced a couple of weeks ago. So around 7:45pm last night, I took the prescribed and it pretty much knocked me out. This morning I struggled to wake and only got up at 9:45 feeling groggy and leaden.
I tried coffee (I prefer tea) and had my favourite breakfast but still felt this fogginess.
Around 12:30 I decided to just go ahead and do it…go for a walk.
Did I feel like it? No. I didn’t even know how far I’d get but decided to try anyway. So I set off – there is a park nearby and I headed there. My steps were wooden but I persisted. There is a saying that ‘only mad dogs and Englishmen go out in the noonday sun’ and I am neither of these but neither am I quitter. The path of my chosen walk is beautiful to say the least and if you have to exercise, it may as well be here.
My pace is much slower than normal but I plod on. I did not bring my iPod on this walk as I am preferring to walk without these days – that way I can let all or most of my senses experience the outing.
As I pass a tree, I hear this strange sound coming from it and look up. On this branch are 4 cockatiels. One seems to protesting about being crowded out on his favourite perch – made me smile. I do a couple of figure-8s around the ponds and after an hour am pretty much done so head home. I check my progress and am still nearly 4000 steps short. I am not sure I will be able to complete my quota today but know I have done my best and that is enough for me right now.
As I write this, the sun is setting, there is cool breeze blowing and I am sitting out on my deck enjoying both. I don’t count today as a failure because I made the very best effort I could to achieve my goal. In fact I am happy that I did as much as I did when the last thing I felt like doing was going for a walk. But some days are like that and even when you don’t feel like it, you just have to do it anyway…