PTSD

These past few weeks have been very mixed – lots of highs and lows. It started when there were 3 bomb scares – 2 of them near my office in the city and one on route to the city from…
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I recently had an accident on my way to work. I was cut off by an impatient person in a white panel van who did not seem to notice they had forced me into a barrier. What is it about…
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Some days having complex PTSD is harder to deal with than others. The past few weeks have had a few days like that. One of my limitations is travelling on public transport during peek times. I inevitably end up having…
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“What if you look at this current situation you’re in as a gift?” she said. “A gift” I say incredulously? What do you mean? Let me try to explain she replies. Through your life, you have been through many times…
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Recently I found myself facing a dilemma – two difficult choices. One morning it was dark and raining when time to leave for work – not a good combination for me because it has the potential to transport me back…
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So this happened. Recently the group  of ladies I meet with every week did charts on what made them anxious or angry and what brought them joy. Interestingly enough, my joy chart had very little to do with people! It has…
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Towards the end of last year, I had a meeting in the city and did not think I could do it. I was almost paralysed with fear at the thought of being anywhere near the city. Without the help of…
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It’s a dark, stormy morning and I am thankful for the chance to stay in bed reading my book. It is supposed to be like this all weekend and it’s perfect for me. It’s been a long, frustrating week and…
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It is difficult to live with the symptoms of PTSD, but even more so when you suffer from a complex form of the illness as I do. Everything seems to be more complicated and scary. Fear is a very real…
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I am up early after another restless night. I go through the motions of showering, dressing and driving to work. It is still dark out as I set off for my walk. As I circle the pond. I begin to…
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