Another sleepless night…
I have been on leave for 3 weeks now and thought my sleeplessness might improve without the stresses that work creates – having the luxury of being able to sleep in or take a nap whenever I feel like it. Alas, that has not been the case
I go through periods of insomnia and it is one of my least favourite side affects of PTSD. I am probably averaging about 4 hours sleep a night these days which is way below what I need. When I am working full time, it takes all my energy just to make it through the day. It affects every area of my life – some days I am irritable and impatient, others I find it difficult to concentrate. But I am no quitter so I push through each day.
Here is where some people would be tempted to spout off a bunch of remedies to try – I have tried countless with limited or no success – from meditation to sleep aids, both natural and pharmaceutical, warm milk and the list goes on. It seems that when my brain is on high alert, sleep is the first thing affected. Of late, with my symptoms being quite high, my insomnia is back in full force.
Why am I back in this space? There are a number of reasons. Suffice it to say, I have been here before and will get through it again. I am learning to be patient with myself and rest when I can. Meanwhile, I am thankful for this time off that lets me rest a little more than normal.