I awaken this morning and notice a shift. It seems like I have spent the last fifty odd years fighting for my very survival in one form or another. But today, all the fight has left me. I have no energy left.it just seems all so meaningless, pointless. I am tired and have no will to continue. Thriving seems to be an impossible dream.
I am a complete mess! Tears are flowing; there is no incentive to get out of bed. I have no will to go on. Nothing interests me – usually I can distract myself, or find something to help shift me from this space – today I have nothing. I can’t concentrate to read or even watch TV. I don’t even have the energy to be anxious – I am numb.